Argggghhhh - another 2 days of eating like crap! I wake up with the best of intentions but by 10am I have totally gone off track. I swear, tomorrow I am really going to pull it together. I've already packed my bag for the gym and made a date with Karen to hit the treadmill before work.

Unfortunately, I am traveling again for work tomorrow, and will be away from home for 2 nights. Which means eating out, and probably not making the best choices. Perhaps my goal for the next few days should be to get some fruits and vegetables in, and not overeat until I feel sick. And to exercise each day I'm away.

This weekend I've been thinking a lot about reasons why I want to lose weight. Here are some of them:

Health:

• My knees hurt
  
• My feet hurt
  
  
• I’m tired and out of breath a lot
  
  
• I think I'm prediabetic
  
  
• Heart disease runs in family
  
  

Comfort:

• Being able to tie my shoes without losing my breath
• Being able to do pilates and yoga (right now I can barely touch my toes because my stomach totally gets in the way)
  
• Fit comfortably in airline seat without squishing myself and neighbors
  
  
• Won’t be hot all the time
  
  
• Clothes will be more comfortable
  
  
• I will feel less heavy and bloated
  
  
• Sleep better and less (9 hours a night is too much!)
  
  
• More energy
  
  
• Can wear high heels again!
  
  
• More stamina to do things
  
  

Reach goals:

• General fitness
  
  
• Run a 5K again
  
  
• Run a half marathon
  
  
• Do a triathlon
  
  
• Show people I can do it!
  
  
• Finish something I started
  
  

Other benefits:

• Increased self-confidence
  
  
• Better appearance
  
  
• Respect at work
  
  
• Won’t feel as awkward in public
  
  

Six pounds later

6 pounds in 2 weeks! That's how much I've gained, not lost. For the past 10 days I've been traveling on business and that seems to set off all my triggers for eating. My need to eat until I'm way too full goes into overdrive. It's almost like I start to panic if I feel there won't be enough food to fill me up. The world won't end if I'm a little hungry - but somehow I have to convince myself of that.

This morning's weight was 256.8. Hopefully next week it will be less!